I had someone very near and dear to me and this past week I have lost him due to my fears and stupitity. He was the friend that made my thoughts shine bright and the thought of losing him scared me. Well I was falling in love with him and that scared me so bad I ran away because I didn’t want to get hurt. Instead I hurt him and I hurt myself. He was what made my soul glow and longed to recieve his text, but I knew he was scared as well because he felt the same way. Now I have lost my friend and I dont know how to get him back. All I know to do is let him know Im sorry for being an idiot and pray that one day he forgives me. He is a strong soul and I know I hurt him I am sorry If you are reading this. I didn’t know how to process it and when that happens I destroy myself and everyone with it. I wish I could take back the days. Just please know You were and always will be my friend. I just hope you find it in your heart to forgive me. I miss my SoulSurfer BeachBum to my BeachBum SoulSurfer. And yes Adam this is to you and you only I messed up and I’m destroying myself because of it. I never meant to hurt you. You deserve so much more. I don’t know if we can ever get back what we had but I would Like to start over and in saying that I say:  Hi my name is Mariah Kaye Long and I am a woman that is lost and needs a friend. I can be crazy and I can be stupid. It’s nice to meet you. Will you be my friend. If you say no I understand. But if so can you text me to say hi.                     I am destined to be the only woman I am meant to be   and that is  BeachBum SoulSurfer

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