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My Life Part 4

20 to 25 Years Of Age

So where I left off. I got sentenced to 8 years TDC. Scared out of my mind but knowing I needed to do what I had to in order to get through this, I did my time. It wasn’t easy I was alone and no family or friends by my side. The one good thing that came from this was I was finally sober and feeling good about myself. They put me in laundry and that made the time go by faster. Not long after being in I saw parole but nothing good came of it. They actually lost my file and I had to wait a another year before seeing them again. I had met many of very interesting people and some down ass guards as well. Seeing the parole again I finally was granted parole but to a place called Safe-P. So here I went Off to another place for 9 more months. One of the worst places I have ever been to. A place to hold you accountable but also snitch on everyone you come across. One of the ugliest place to be, So i again worked in the kitchen for all three shifts so i didn’t have to deal with all the groups and snitches there were. The thing is after that you had to go 3 months after to a halfway house to learn how to get back into society and live a productived life. when it was my time to go to the halgway house they sent me to Austin. What a bad decision on them. I didn’t look for a job or do anything productive there because i was just going to be leaving there in 3 months. So i went to the river and goofed off with the friends i made. Got in trouble a lot for doing so and almost got kicked out till one day they came and arrested the director of the place for embesilment. Ha the bitch was a mean lady Miss English i can remember like it was yesterday. But after all the loss and the long nights of staying awake to make sure i would be alive the next day I was finally getting to go home. In all the time of county and TDCJ 8 years of my life was gone to never get back, but i was alive and clean of heroin. I was home to start my new life and a better one at that. It was a long prosses and scary ordeal but had to be done. If it wasnt for prison i would not be here today to tell my story. I would of been dead within months or not sooner from the heroin or the man and his family i was with. that is the end of the years here so till tomorrow or tonight i will tell more. So as always im leaving you with my thoughts on paper . Im and only destined to me the woman I am meant to be. BeachBum SoulSurfer.


Born and raised at the Coast Moved to the big city in my youth. Never feeling like I was home, wanting my quiet beach again. I have a past like many. I have come to share it with all to help the some know they are not the only one and its ok. To also better understand myself and what is in my heart and soul. The paths I need to take to rid me of my anger and sadness.

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